Tuesday, 18 June 2019

SUICIDE NOTE - By ABSOL

_Not anymore_

It all started a week after Aunty Dorcas came to visit us for the summer break last month. Mommy requested her presence and because she was free she heeded the call.

There was a joyful atmosphere at her arrival and everyone wanted to play with her including me because she was really friendly to all of us, the first week was full of merriment and mom because of that handed us over to her since she did not believe in summer lesson.

Daddy has always been unavailable and most of the things we go through we used to share with mom until Aunty Dorcas came and mom suddenly turned a stranger, she hardly stayed at home and all of us got used to Aunty Dorcas as our friend, sister and role model until the first night when she came to my room.

My siblings were asleep and mom was gone for a party over the weekend leaving us at the mercies of Aunty Dorcas. I am sixteen years old as the first born and so I was assumed to be matured enough to join hands with Aunty to take care of the house and other siblings.

So she came to my room and was naked, I only knew she was naked when the light suddenly came up, immediately I tried to cover my eyes but she moved closer from the edge of the bed and took my hand off my face, it was a terrible night for me as she forced me to sleep with her, when she was satisfied, she strangulated me and threatened to finish my life if I dare open up to anyone.

This continued even when mom was around, Aunty will come to my room, pretending she wanted to help with my assignment but with other evil intentions, she will rub me till I was hard and have her way, even when I was tired she will continue.

I thought I have seen it all until the day she brought a friend of hers home to join her in her evils. We were the only ones at home and they took turn on me till I was thoroughly exhausted after which Aunty wiped me with belt to keep my mouth shut. I will cry every night but to myself, I was close at informing mommy once but she nonchalantly waded me off and sent me away from her room requesting me to go and meet Aunty Dorcas.

I thought she will be leaving after our break but mom pleaded with her to stay longer which she joyfully accepted, fear gripped me and I was beginning to lose myself, every attempt to open up to mommy proved abortive. I was becoming lean but mom decided to ignore. Dad noticed a drop in my scores at school one time he came home but he refused to listen or ask questions, rather I was beaten blue black.

Upon all of these, Aunty Dorcas and her friend will come to pick me up at school before closing time and they will take me home to abuse me the more.

I was on my own yesterday and I decided to end it all, I am sure mom that you will be reading this but sorry it is too late. You trusted the wrong person with us. I am doing this because last night I overheard you extending Aunty Dorcas's stay at our place, and I cannot continue to suffer in her hand.

Please try and create more time for my siblings, you never can tell but as for me, I cannot take it anymore. Bye.

©ABSOL

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