JULIET
The name almost sent me into panic attack. Just when I thought I would never come across anyone with the name again because the last person with that name was a beast. A beast of no human feelings. He tricked me into falling in love with him and at the slightest moment with the most insane excuse in the world he zoomed off leaving me broken and vulnerable, just then Femi came along and then this tribulation, and I am seriously meeting another one just like that? Oh no! This is not happening, that was what I thought, but that was my reality.
I was confused on what to do. Had everything at my disposal to the best of his abilities but there is nothing as satisfying as freedom. And my urge to see Femi grew higher and higher every day. Jide refused to touch me unlike when we were at the other location where they will take turn on me. Instead, he was pampering and taking care of me like I was one queen from no land. My initial harshness towards him started dropping and my wall was falling right before my eyes and each day he came to drop my merriment, I felt like just following him outside and have talks with him but then, I was not ready to willingly cheat on Femi, so I held myself and pretended not to care whenever he was around.
During the course of second week, I discovered I was already adding weight and my body shape was becoming more projected. Every time I checked the mirror, I imagined Femi right beside me but that imagination has turned out to be a mere fantasy. I was weeks gone without sex and it just did not feel normal. I wanted someone inside of me either forcefully or peacefully. My short experience with Jide and his friends has exposed me to the pleasures of painful and forced intercourse.
As usual, Jide came to drop my food without a single word. He was set to leave again as usual and where the courage came from I knew not until I uttered a sentence that changed our mode of relationship.
“Do you mind to keep me company for a while?” I was supposed to be afraid of speaking to him being his slave but his actions towards me since I have been there has not been hostile but lovely and because I needed information on why I was where I was, I decided to also bring down myself and lure him into telling me everything I needed to know about how I got there in the first place, coupled with the fact that my body was demanding what servicing myself could no longer provide, so I was indirectly stooping to conquer him the more.
“Please…” I pleaded when he refused to take any action.
“I have to be somewhere and it is very important” he finally replied. Speaking to me after a very long period of time. I knew very well he was reluctant but I had no choice, instead of letting him go just like that, I walked up to him seductively. I began to admire him just like I did with the last Jide even though Femi was still the dominant occupant of my heart but my physical self was demanding what I could no longer give it and so, there was need for me to satisfy myself and I thought using Jide for that purpose would be just good, after all, another Jide has also used me before. I don’t know why everybody with the name Jide must be dangerously wicked.
Despite all of my attempts to get him to satisfy me, he declined and instead walked out and locked me up again. I felt ashamed of myself. I felt rejected. I felt unwanted, but determined not to give up after all, he would still come to drop my dinner.
©ABSOL
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